Ah, moving.....again.

What is it about moving that makes you want to throw everything away. I have never been in such a mood to purge useless items as I am right now. I was packing today and as I was packing things away into yet another box I was thinking to myself, "I could just throw this away." But I didn't, I packed it into the box and even wrote on the outside of the box the name of that particular item so I'd know where it was. Why? Because as I was contemplating throwing it away I remembered the day I bought it, how excited Wyatt was to hold it and touch it. How even with his limited vocabulary he found the words to tell me about it. And 2 years later Reagan felt the same way about it. How can I throw away those memories?! Shame on me! Right?

It's not the item that's important, it's the feeling it evokes and subconsciously I was clinging to the memory by hanging on to an old toy. How often do we do that with old sin, or an area of our lives we just won't surrender to the Lord's will because it's just too dear to us. We cling to it and hope God doesn't notice, as if that's possible. It's our way of maintaining control while allowing everyone else to think we're in complete surrender. A holy farce.... Can't we just keep our little charade going...just until we aren't afraid to give it up? NO! Satan will and does use those seemingly little sins as a way to infiltrate the parts of our lives that are under control. Believe me sister...I'm proof of that. God be praised, I'm learning everyday through His Word to surrender.

So how do we get there? How do we begin to surrender? It's one step at a time. Have faith that His promises are true. (2Timothy 3:16) Have faith that he hears you when you're in the deepest pit imaginable. (Romans 8:26) Have faith that no matter how difficult the road to obedience He will be with you. (Mattew 28:20b) Believe with your whole heart that He sent His only son to die for YOU, yes you. So that you would have everlasting life. (John 3:16) He knows how broken you are. He knows how badly you've messed up. He knows your most embarrassingly horrible thoughts and guess what.... He still loves you. He does.

Cling to that.